I have gone through a lot in life. Good and bad but that seizure broke me in ways that nothing else ever had. I was more suicidal after that seizure than I ever was. Knowing the brain surgery didn't permanently heal me made me realize I will never be 100% "fixed". It is taking a VERY long time to accept that. I am still working on that. Regardless, I am still going.
I am determined to get things under control and stay positive, Not only do I have endless support and love, I also have a phenomenal counselor and great doctors. It has now been a year, 6 monthes, and 11 days since my last seizure. While I don't believe I will be truly happy again until after I hit that 4 year mark, I will have high hopes for it.
I don't know if my faith in freedom will return like it was before but I will fight for it. I have been going on a journey to find myself again and get back in the grove I was in before.
Good luck for everyone and remember, Live for Today, Plan for Tomorrow, And Learn from Yesterday. We've got this!
